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What I really want from you is nothing I can give myself
What I really want to do is nothing I can do without your help
Won't you come with me? Won't you come with me?
I am lonely, and it ain't nothing to be ashamed of
I am only trying to make you see
I'm no good here on my own. Aren't you tired of being alone?
I thought I was all right walking alone at night
Yeah, I thought I was on fire enough with my own dreams
But it's cold in the dark. I don't make much of a spark
Yeah, I think I missed the mark here with my own dreams
What I want from you is nothing I can give myself
What I want from you is you
And what I want to do is everything we can do
Everything we can do is better
Than walking alone at night, trying to be all right
Yeah, I got my dreams but I ain't dreaming
And I want to take the cold, make it warm till we're old
We've got fires to keep, babe, we've got love to hold
And I've got stars in the sky. I will reach them by and by
It's with you by my side where I can feel them
It ain't good to be alone. Alone ain't no one's home
Aren't you tired of skipping stones across no water?
There are fish in the sea. One is you and one is me
I found you and you found me. Let's swim forever
What I really want from you is nothing I can give myself
What I really want to do is have you and no one else
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All I Ever Wanted
03:07
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Love, I saw you far away
I've been waiting to talk to you since I was eight
Saving secrets in trees, telling stories like dreams
Well, dreams ain't for dreaming anymore
All I ever, ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you
And all I ever, ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you
Dreams may be dreams and life what you choose
I chose you from far away and dared to believe
My dreams were what I always knew
And I'm not the kind to always believe
I believe
Love me like a summer fire
Love me like your favorite blue
Love me like a thousand kites
Flown away on a kiss to be stars in the night
I'll love you like the tree outside
My window I keep always open
Full and green and bare and strong
The parts that grow and the parts that fall
Chorus
Love me like a winter moon
Love me like a red balloon
Love me like a thousand lights
You lit with kisses in the night
I'll love you like the tree outside
My window I keep always open
Red with fire and white with snow
The parts that bleed and the parts that grow old
A dream's still a dream when we're holding it in our hands
A dream's still a dream with fingers tangled through my own
I've been holding your hands now, all of these years I've grown
Holding your hands, and I never let go
I'll never let go
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Cold Feet
02:27
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What do you do when your smile disappears?
Do you make one up so the world won't hear you say
Hey, hey, hey, what am I doing?
What do you do when you're all alone?
Call your mother up on the phone?
I call mine everyday to hear her say
CHORUS:
Everything changes, as everything changes
And I feel so sad, but I cannot cry
What did I lose?
So long ago that makes me shy
So many things I wanna do
But I'm too scared to try
I get cold feet just from being alive
What do you do when your friends disappear?
Nothing in the room but every fear you could never face on your own
What did I prove?
What do you do when you've said goodbye?
Ask yourself if the hurt you felt was real
Or if you were just unwilling to try?
Chorus
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Amy
03:22
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Don't you ever listen to anyone who doesn't think you're pretty
And don't be surprised if not many people do
They haven't really looked at you
Long enough to let you love what you love
What you love what you love what you love what you do
Amy, I love the way you love the world
Amy, I love the way you love the world
To tell you the truth, I think it's pretty hot
That a girl would spend her whole life picking up rocks
How many people do you see crazy about geology?
Only Amy
Paleomagnetism, paleomagnetism
Lava flows. Sediment grows
Constant drifting flips the poles
Ain't no rules honey but your own
Ain't no rules honey, and you have to show them
Now, you ain't wandering from the grounds of sanity
And anyways, that's just someone else's vanity
What holds a soul together also breaks it apart
There's iron in the earth, but what's in your heart?
If they can't look at you and say, Oh wow!
They don't matter anyhow, anyhow
Amy, I love the way you love the world
Amy, I love the way you love the world
Now, leads must be followed, specimens collected
Positions reconstructed, old stories resurrected
Each rock picked up and swinging in your pocket
Is a plate tectonic, geographic, biographic locket
And if anyone asks you what it's for, say
You know nothing about the earth's magnetic field, that's for sure!
Paleomagnetism, paleomagnetism
Lava flows. Sediment grows
Constant drifting flips the poles
Nobody knows where you go
Nobody knows, you have to show them
Now, I'm most happy when I'm talking to the trees
And you think you're weird for sticking rocks in machines
And studying the pull of the earth in the ground
That's just plain intelligence. Get out of town with your measurements!
Find that cabin by that stream
You have beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams
Amy, I love the way you love the world
Amy, you have beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams
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Paint the Moon
04:11
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Painted blue in the sand, I stand with my hands
Wrapped round the strings of a million things
With my face lifted up like an empty cup
From the bottom I wait with my arms lifted up
In the pale, pale blue of the night
I've been traveling long
I don't know if it's wrong
All I know is I'm missing a place for a song
And the moon will sing with me tonight
I'll paint the moon
Paint it high, paint it real, paint it bright
Paint the moon what I'm missing tonight
In these woods is a light, only comes with the night
In these woods, I feel all right
At the edge of the dark, I can see the marks
On these hands that are holding too tight
One's for you
One's for love
One's for all I'm made of
One's for letting go
One's for reaching up
Take me moon
Take me high, take me real, take me bright
Take me, I am missing tonight
In the heat of the sun, I know I have become
Unwilling to say that my love's been undone
So I come to you moon, I come
And I remember you
I remember your heart beating against mine
But the moon has a song I can count on
The moon will sing with me tonight
Paint me moon
Paint me high, paint me real, paint me bright
Paint me what I'm missing tonight (X2)
Tonight
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Wide World
03:31
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I am a wide, wide world
And you are too narrow to see me
And I'm sick of trying to squeeze into view
Oh, I am a wide, wide world
How can I want you to love me?
When you cannot even hold me?
That kind of love would harm me
But my arms are aching without you
And my world becomes smaller without you
You are so lovely
I want you to love me
But you are afraid for your heart
You are afraid that I'll take it and rip it apart
Because you are a wide, wide world
But you are too tender to open
And you are so tired of hurting from love
Since your wide heart was broken
You say for me it's too easy
You say you just need some time
But darling, I cannot just hold back the ocean
I can't choke the moon and the stars
Look at my arms. Are they down at my sides?
Are they hanging with no room to hold you?
If they are there, it's because I am scared
That wide open you won't let me know you
Because I am a wide, wide world
And your heart is tender and broken
But I am not asking your sore heart to heal
I am asking if I can hold you
I am asking if I can hold you
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Song for Spring
02:42
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Clear blue sky on a winter’s day
Sunlight falls like a fresh coat of paint
Everything is shining. Everything is new
My heart is singing. Winter is through!
Red tiled roof and a fat black crow
Houses with chimneys all in a row
I see a bird fly high through the trees
Spring is a bird flying back home to me!
Snow in patches on the grass
Icy sidewalks clean at last
I hear the church bells, distant and clear
Shouting a new song, springtime is here
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She
01:56
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She knows her own strength
But not how to use it
She hears the music
But doesn’t make a sound
And she knows how to listen
And she listens all the time
To everyone who says they love her
But not enough to listen
Not enough to see her
So she can sing out loud
It’s been a long, long time
Since someone held her long enough to cry
It’s been a long, long time
Since someone held her for a long, long time
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Winter Flower
03:37
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When I lost my faith in love, I had nothing to believe
Only cold and clouds as far as I could see
I’d go out running in the snow
And I’d think about falling down
The first big hurt steals the breath from every room
Oh, it cut so deep, love lost its eyes and couldn’t bloom
But I heard your shadow singing
And it sang of another morning
Chorus:
Oh, you saved my life in the darkest hour
You were my phoenix fire, my winter flower
I put your record on, and the music turned me around
The world was spinning wild, but your peace was like a train
I stepped onboard, and I never was the same
Oh, the pain rolled by the windows
and the wind began to call my name
I never thought I was a winner. I was far too weak and shy
But your voice reached in, touched something deep, it made me cry
And I’d been dry for years
I was a desert in a winter sky
Chorus
Cause I was lost back then, could have slipped through the cracks
Would have jumped that bridge, but your voice brought me back
Oh, you took me through the winter, and you helped me build a fire in the snow
There was no blood on the ground, and it’s because of you I know
Chorus
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I know a woman who feels every moment
With sorrow and joy, she is blown by the wind
Her heart moves so quickly, it tires her to follow
But this world wasn’t made for such sensitive things
And I want to sing her a song that will free her
To feel what she feels without judgment or shame
All of her power right beside all her pain
And I know a mother who cannot remember
She died to the dreams she once carried inside
And she raised a daughter who cannot forgive her
For failing to lead her with wings into life
And I want to sing her a song that redeems her
For all that she is that she hasn’t become
As she lived for her father then husband then son
And Eve, blessed mother of all of creation
They punished you when you reached out for the truth
And all of this violence we witness toward women
Is the shame we still carry for wanting the fruit
And I want to sing her a song that will bring her
Into a world where her reach can be wide
Free to take what she wants and to never be shy
We find ourselves weeping in small quiet moments
Caught with no reason to feel so alone
They tell us our sadness is private depression
But our mother’s submission is centuries old
And I want to sing you a song that receives you
As you wake to a world where you’re second to none
Where your life is your song and your song will be sung
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In a dream, I knew that I belong
I heard the night whisper into my ear
You are enough. Child, you are good and strong
And there is always a place for you here
Do not mind the days that are dark and gray
You have light for the way when you live from your heart
Sing with me now
When I woke up, I lit a candle
I closed my eyes to remember the words
I am enough. I am good and strong
It’s up to me to believe what I heard
When they come those days that are dark and gray
I have bright words to say on the tip of my tongue
Sing with me now
I am good, and I have love to give
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I am strong, and I know how to live
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I am enough, and I will always be
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I belong. I’m part of everything
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I do not mind the days that are dark and gray
I have light for the way when I live from my heart
Sing with me now
I am good, and I have love to give
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I am strong, and I know how to live
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I am enough, and I will always be
I have words on the tip of my tongue
I belong. I’m part of everything
I have words on the tip of my tongue (X3)
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Coming Home
03:55
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How can I go home
When home is not a place?
I have not known one but many
And I can’t remember how to come home
Returning is never easy
And it is almost impossible
The things I wanted changed remain
While the things I needed flew away
And I did my best to say goodbye
And here’s hello again
I belong to the pieces of my heart
So many pieces tear me apart
And where am I with a heart spread wide?
I cannot choose one god or one self
My heart is stretched in pieces
And one of them is you
And I want to come, I want to come
But coming to you is like coming home
And I can’t remember how to come home
The wind will blow, and I will go
I will go home
How I remember what it was to love you
And how I remember what it was to be loved by you
And I want to come to you, I want to come to you
But coming to you is like coming home
And I can’t remember how to come home
And I want to come to you, I want to come to you
But coming to you is like coming home
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Jaspar Lepak Seattle, Washington
A child of the Sonoran Desert, Jaspar Lepak is a folk/Americana songwriter whose remarkable gift for melody is only surpassed by her poetry. Deeply influenced by the many places she has called home (Tucson, Minneapolis, Durban, and currently Seattle), she sweeps across landscapes with an emotional depth that is extraordinary, while her clear, pure voice touches the heart. ... more
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