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Wide World

by Jaspar Lepak

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1.
What I really want from you is nothing I can give myself What I really want to do is nothing I can do without your help Won't you come with me? Won't you come with me? I am lonely, and it ain't nothing to be ashamed of I am only trying to make you see I'm no good here on my own. Aren't you tired of being alone? I thought I was all right walking alone at night Yeah, I thought I was on fire enough with my own dreams But it's cold in the dark. I don't make much of a spark Yeah, I think I missed the mark here with my own dreams What I want from you is nothing I can give myself What I want from you is you And what I want to do is everything we can do Everything we can do is better Than walking alone at night, trying to be all right Yeah, I got my dreams but I ain't dreaming And I want to take the cold, make it warm till we're old We've got fires to keep, babe, we've got love to hold And I've got stars in the sky. I will reach them by and by It's with you by my side where I can feel them It ain't good to be alone. Alone ain't no one's home Aren't you tired of skipping stones across no water? There are fish in the sea. One is you and one is me I found you and you found me. Let's swim forever What I really want from you is nothing I can give myself What I really want to do is have you and no one else
2.
Love, I saw you far away I've been waiting to talk to you since I was eight Saving secrets in trees, telling stories like dreams Well, dreams ain't for dreaming anymore All I ever, ever wanted All I ever wanted was you And all I ever, ever wanted All I ever wanted was you Dreams may be dreams and life what you choose I chose you from far away and dared to believe My dreams were what I always knew And I'm not the kind to always believe I believe Love me like a summer fire Love me like your favorite blue Love me like a thousand kites Flown away on a kiss to be stars in the night I'll love you like the tree outside My window I keep always open Full and green and bare and strong The parts that grow and the parts that fall Chorus Love me like a winter moon Love me like a red balloon Love me like a thousand lights You lit with kisses in the night I'll love you like the tree outside My window I keep always open Red with fire and white with snow The parts that bleed and the parts that grow old A dream's still a dream when we're holding it in our hands A dream's still a dream with fingers tangled through my own I've been holding your hands now, all of these years I've grown Holding your hands, and I never let go I'll never let go
3.
Cold Feet 02:27
What do you do when your smile disappears? Do you make one up so the world won't hear you say Hey, hey, hey, what am I doing? What do you do when you're all alone? Call your mother up on the phone? I call mine everyday to hear her say CHORUS: Everything changes, as everything changes And I feel so sad, but I cannot cry What did I lose? So long ago that makes me shy So many things I wanna do But I'm too scared to try I get cold feet just from being alive What do you do when your friends disappear? Nothing in the room but every fear you could never face on your own What did I prove? What do you do when you've said goodbye? Ask yourself if the hurt you felt was real Or if you were just unwilling to try? Chorus
4.
Amy 03:22
Don't you ever listen to anyone who doesn't think you're pretty And don't be surprised if not many people do They haven't really looked at you Long enough to let you love what you love What you love what you love what you love what you do Amy, I love the way you love the world Amy, I love the way you love the world To tell you the truth, I think it's pretty hot That a girl would spend her whole life picking up rocks How many people do you see crazy about geology? Only Amy Paleomagnetism, paleomagnetism Lava flows. Sediment grows Constant drifting flips the poles Ain't no rules honey but your own Ain't no rules honey, and you have to show them Now, you ain't wandering from the grounds of sanity And anyways, that's just someone else's vanity What holds a soul together also breaks it apart There's iron in the earth, but what's in your heart? If they can't look at you and say, Oh wow! They don't matter anyhow, anyhow Amy, I love the way you love the world Amy, I love the way you love the world Now, leads must be followed, specimens collected Positions reconstructed, old stories resurrected Each rock picked up and swinging in your pocket Is a plate tectonic, geographic, biographic locket And if anyone asks you what it's for, say You know nothing about the earth's magnetic field, that's for sure! Paleomagnetism, paleomagnetism Lava flows. Sediment grows Constant drifting flips the poles Nobody knows where you go Nobody knows, you have to show them Now, I'm most happy when I'm talking to the trees And you think you're weird for sticking rocks in machines And studying the pull of the earth in the ground That's just plain intelligence. Get out of town with your measurements! Find that cabin by that stream You have beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams Amy, I love the way you love the world Amy, you have beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful dreams
5.
Painted blue in the sand, I stand with my hands Wrapped round the strings of a million things With my face lifted up like an empty cup From the bottom I wait with my arms lifted up In the pale, pale blue of the night I've been traveling long I don't know if it's wrong All I know is I'm missing a place for a song And the moon will sing with me tonight I'll paint the moon Paint it high, paint it real, paint it bright Paint the moon what I'm missing tonight In these woods is a light, only comes with the night In these woods, I feel all right At the edge of the dark, I can see the marks On these hands that are holding too tight One's for you One's for love One's for all I'm made of One's for letting go One's for reaching up Take me moon Take me high, take me real, take me bright Take me, I am missing tonight In the heat of the sun, I know I have become Unwilling to say that my love's been undone So I come to you moon, I come And I remember you I remember your heart beating against mine But the moon has a song I can count on The moon will sing with me tonight Paint me moon Paint me high, paint me real, paint me bright Paint me what I'm missing tonight (X2) Tonight
6.
Wide World 03:31
I am a wide, wide world And you are too narrow to see me And I'm sick of trying to squeeze into view Oh, I am a wide, wide world How can I want you to love me? When you cannot even hold me? That kind of love would harm me But my arms are aching without you And my world becomes smaller without you You are so lovely I want you to love me But you are afraid for your heart You are afraid that I'll take it and rip it apart Because you are a wide, wide world But you are too tender to open And you are so tired of hurting from love Since your wide heart was broken You say for me it's too easy You say you just need some time But darling, I cannot just hold back the ocean I can't choke the moon and the stars Look at my arms. Are they down at my sides? Are they hanging with no room to hold you? If they are there, it's because I am scared That wide open you won't let me know you Because I am a wide, wide world And your heart is tender and broken But I am not asking your sore heart to heal I am asking if I can hold you I am asking if I can hold you
7.
Clear blue sky on a winter’s day Sunlight falls like a fresh coat of paint Everything is shining. Everything is new My heart is singing. Winter is through! Red tiled roof and a fat black crow Houses with chimneys all in a row I see a bird fly high through the trees Spring is a bird flying back home to me! Snow in patches on the grass Icy sidewalks clean at last I hear the church bells, distant and clear Shouting a new song, springtime is here
8.
She 01:56
She knows her own strength But not how to use it She hears the music But doesn’t make a sound And she knows how to listen And she listens all the time To everyone who says they love her But not enough to listen Not enough to see her So she can sing out loud It’s been a long, long time Since someone held her long enough to cry It’s been a long, long time Since someone held her for a long, long time
9.
When I lost my faith in love, I had nothing to believe Only cold and clouds as far as I could see I’d go out running in the snow And I’d think about falling down The first big hurt steals the breath from every room Oh, it cut so deep, love lost its eyes and couldn’t bloom But I heard your shadow singing And it sang of another morning Chorus: Oh, you saved my life in the darkest hour You were my phoenix fire, my winter flower I put your record on, and the music turned me around The world was spinning wild, but your peace was like a train I stepped onboard, and I never was the same Oh, the pain rolled by the windows and the wind began to call my name I never thought I was a winner. I was far too weak and shy But your voice reached in, touched something deep, it made me cry And I’d been dry for years I was a desert in a winter sky Chorus Cause I was lost back then, could have slipped through the cracks Would have jumped that bridge, but your voice brought me back Oh, you took me through the winter, and you helped me build a fire in the snow There was no blood on the ground, and it’s because of you I know Chorus
10.
I know a woman who feels every moment With sorrow and joy, she is blown by the wind Her heart moves so quickly, it tires her to follow But this world wasn’t made for such sensitive things And I want to sing her a song that will free her To feel what she feels without judgment or shame All of her power right beside all her pain And I know a mother who cannot remember She died to the dreams she once carried inside And she raised a daughter who cannot forgive her For failing to lead her with wings into life And I want to sing her a song that redeems her For all that she is that she hasn’t become As she lived for her father then husband then son And Eve, blessed mother of all of creation They punished you when you reached out for the truth And all of this violence we witness toward women Is the shame we still carry for wanting the fruit And I want to sing her a song that will bring her Into a world where her reach can be wide Free to take what she wants and to never be shy We find ourselves weeping in small quiet moments Caught with no reason to feel so alone They tell us our sadness is private depression But our mother’s submission is centuries old And I want to sing you a song that receives you As you wake to a world where you’re second to none Where your life is your song and your song will be sung
11.
In a dream, I knew that I belong I heard the night whisper into my ear You are enough. Child, you are good and strong And there is always a place for you here Do not mind the days that are dark and gray You have light for the way when you live from your heart Sing with me now When I woke up, I lit a candle I closed my eyes to remember the words I am enough. I am good and strong It’s up to me to believe what I heard When they come those days that are dark and gray I have bright words to say on the tip of my tongue Sing with me now I am good, and I have love to give I have words on the tip of my tongue I am strong, and I know how to live I have words on the tip of my tongue I am enough, and I will always be I have words on the tip of my tongue I belong. I’m part of everything I have words on the tip of my tongue I do not mind the days that are dark and gray I have light for the way when I live from my heart Sing with me now I am good, and I have love to give I have words on the tip of my tongue I am strong, and I know how to live I have words on the tip of my tongue I am enough, and I will always be I have words on the tip of my tongue I belong. I’m part of everything I have words on the tip of my tongue (X3)
12.
Coming Home 03:55
How can I go home When home is not a place? I have not known one but many And I can’t remember how to come home Returning is never easy And it is almost impossible The things I wanted changed remain While the things I needed flew away And I did my best to say goodbye And here’s hello again I belong to the pieces of my heart So many pieces tear me apart And where am I with a heart spread wide? I cannot choose one god or one self My heart is stretched in pieces And one of them is you And I want to come, I want to come But coming to you is like coming home And I can’t remember how to come home The wind will blow, and I will go I will go home How I remember what it was to love you And how I remember what it was to be loved by you And I want to come to you, I want to come to you But coming to you is like coming home And I can’t remember how to come home And I want to come to you, I want to come to you But coming to you is like coming home

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Wide World celebrates ten years of Jaspar's recording career. It includes nine fresh arrangements of old favorites and three new originals. Recorded mostly live in studio, it features back-up performances by the talented musicians who most often join her on tour. Crafted with simple elegance, Wide World showcases the best of what Lepak’s live performances have to offer: humor, vulnerability, an emphasis on nature and the seasons, and a quiet fierceness that champions the female voice and honors the emotions of the heart.

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released April 22, 2014

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Jaspar Lepak Seattle, Washington

A child of the Sonoran Desert, Jaspar Lepak is a folk/Americana songwriter whose remarkable gift for melody is only surpassed by her poetry. Deeply influenced by the many places she has called home (Tucson, Minneapolis, Durban, and currently Seattle), she sweeps across landscapes with an emotional depth that is extraordinary, while her clear, pure voice touches the heart. ... more

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